Drain

The drain is gone
Hallelujah!!!

Nothing but nothing

I've got nada going on. Went into lab today for the first time since the second surgery. Got nothing done really. I did a few piddling chores, but I've been favoring my left arm. They stuck a drain in my side right below my left arm pit, and I hate even touching it. I wouldn't care except I used all of my tylenol and I don't care much for pain. Don't get me wrong, I'm still doing well, I just hate this thing and can't manage to function with it.

I can't wait until they remove it. It has drained below 30ccs of fluid today (the amount I'm supposed to look for) but I'm not sure if it is blocked or it really isn't draining any longer. I see a clot in it (disgusting I know) and am waiting until I take a Vicodin to try and get it out of the line. I'll have to move quickly because those things knock me out.

I went about this evening picking up about the house. I have so much laundry to do (Fold really) that I should be ashamed of myself. I still haven't swept the floors clean or cleaned the washbasin in the bathroom, but I'll get to them. Later.

I refused my mother a visit today. I was mean about it too. I was nice about it yesterday, but she pushed the issue today. I want to do this on my terms in my way...a happy way. And I know that them coming in and out is only hurting things...me.

I'm pretty bored aat the moment, although I have no reason to be. I should be reading this article for lab meeting tomorrow, or writing SOMETHING (other than this post), but I don't feel like it. I'm enjoying the peace of my home, the quiet, and the life that I've made here. I hope it lasts for as long as I need it to. As long as I want it to. I'm really happy tonight.

all done

okay. i got all of that out. my brother has been driving me crazy. i talked to my aunt, cried it out, and am planning my next vacation so that i can thoroughly dismiss the drama.

I'm thinking christmas/new year in disneyworld or paris or something spectacular.
JUST THINK!!!
celebrating the new year without cancer.
awesome.

I really miss

my grandma. I need her so bad right now. Like really.

I need my peace back

The second surgery is over. Hopefully this will be the last one I'll need in my life. It was a bigger deal than the last one in terms of recovery and aftercare and scarring and everything else.

My brother came up and I can't wait for him to go back. I keep my worlds separate. Home is home. For a reason. I can't deal with this level of ignorance for much longer.

I'm alive

And well

So, I pulled through the surgery without a problem...and apparently have to do yet another. I'm not looking forward :)

I am very grateful for Jaggernaut and DCchick...I hope I'm not too much.

I've just returned from a conference/vacation in Ft. Lauderdale. It was amazing. The vacation part. LOL. I can NOT get enough of the ocean. I really can't.

Currently, I'm sitting in the lab waiting on some molecules to do what I want them to do. Its such a shame...today is a splendidly pretty day. I tooled around for most of it before coming here, but still wonder if I should have just lain out somewhere. Reality in the form of scientific competitors won't allow that though.

Yesterday, I talked to an old college friend with whom I'd lost touch. We both knew where to reach one another (our respective parents/grandparents homes) but circumstances (language barriers and grandparents inability to pass messages) prevented us both from calling. Hoping upon hope, I reached out anyway and as I thought, I could not be understood. Except my message reached the recipient (my dear friend) and she called me back. I've missed her terribly. She has missed me also. We've both been looking for one another through crazy means (searching for that direct connect) and failing. A reunion has been discussed. I can't wait to see her. I miss her family. My mexican family. More misty water colored memories . I guess I should reach out to one more person, but pure stubborness won't allow it. He'll find me.