Get it together girl

I need to get myself together. I feel as if I'm moving through quicksand, but need to be running. I wish my grandmother was still around to talk to, or that my dad was still my dad instead of her husband. I need some encouragement from somewhere, and I don't really have anywhere to turn to get it.

I suppose this is when I'm supposed to reach down inside myself and tell myself that everything is going to be okay...that I can do it.

It doesn't feel the same though